grandma :(

hi guys. i still in a deep sad bcos my grandma has passed away in 19th August :(((((
she is on her sleep and never woke up anymore :(
i can't stop crying when i see her, even i know she can't hols her pain anymore
when she go, i know Buddha will take her and granny will have a better life after that :D
but i still sad, my grandpa looks couldn't accept my granny has go forever :(
my mommy and her sis n bro also, they looks very sad. more than me
and now we'll take care of grandpa, we hang out and having great memories with you grandpa :)
so sad when i heard my grandpa said "ur grandma don't want to come back anymore"

i'm still crying when i memorize when i was kid my granny always said "san2, ci pa yao boi?" san2, haven't you eat? "san2, kok u luid bo? ama ho lu luid ya?" san2 have you any money? i'll give you , ok?"
when i'm grow up and granny was sick, i always ask her back, haven't you eat? i always want to comfort her, i was want to help her, even i wasn't live together.

on 16th august, granny has been hospitalized, i was go to see her at night, and also when 17th august. when 18th august we can't go to hospital, so i think i go tomorrow night and at saturday me and my sist gonna take care of her. but, God said different. 17th august was the last night i see my granny alive..
i'm so upset don't gp to hospital on 18th :(
at 19th august morning, i heard the news from my aunt and its broke our hearts. tears can't be hold anymore.

then i don't go to college, go to funeral home, see her and accompany her :(
so sad seeing my grandpa, mommy, aunt and uncle crying. :( i'm also crying too
at 22th august my granny cremation day :( the last day i see her :( now i only see the ash residue that has been put on Ekayana temple.

good bye, ama.. i'll see you on our next life :)
you're my best grandma ever, even i'm not your best grandchild :)
we'll take care of akong. don't worry :)
even you're not in here anymore, but you will be on our heart forever.
thankyou for being our best grandma
you're my only :)
i LOVE you , and always be like that.